Everyone will go through this, I guess. Well, I must say it IS weird, for something as big as a school Choir (well, actually, it’s not that big…it’s only 38-strong, currently) to be going through this stage too.

Now I doubt. I doubt why did I chose Choir as my first choice for CCA when I just stepped into my secondary school life.

I thought that it was because I did not get my chance to join a Choir in primary school when I was being recommended by my Maths teacher then. It was all because of that stupid cough, it ruined my chance. Never mind, so I thought that I would join Choir when I get to choose my CCA in secondary school.

Oh dumb, and I sometimes regret about it when things go all wrong in Choir: the bias conductor, members who are not united, crazy ideas, and useless ideas that seem nice in the mind. Note: I regret joining Choir only OCCASIONALLY.

Most of the time, I may seem indifferent at school, but actually, sometimes, I really dislike going to Choir. (Especially when there’s the conductor conducting)

I don’t know. I’m not quite a forgiving person. I know I’m being unfair to the person, but I can’t help it. (And I will always dislike it when I see him)

So, now I thought, WHY DID I EVEN CHOOSE THIS CCA??

Well, but I must admit that though I may not like this CCA that much, I still worry for its fate.

I should have been more heartless. *Sigh* Anyway, Choir in our school is getting lesser and lesser membership every year. In short, Choir is facing an aging population crisis.

We have tried our best on Open House and CCA Recruitment Days, but the result just get worse every year.

Is it our fault that Choir land into this state, this pathetic state? Perhaps. Most of us make an impression that Choir is very “sian” (Hokkien word for “boring”), and our performances are getting from bad to worse. I know that most of us did not put in our best for Choir, and really, I must say that most of us only think about the CCA points we get at the end of the four years.

I don’t know what brainwashing has the others in other CCA gone through, making them so determined to put in lots of effort into their CCAs, treating it as one of their subjects. Obviously, Choir members have not gone through that brainwashing process.

She said that the Choir may close down, or being transformed into a hand bell Choir (or something like that). I don’t know what to say. Really.

I’m not accepting the situation, neither am I opposing it. (That’s my bad personality; I love to sit on the fence) Perhaps, I’m thinking about letting nature takes its course.

All I can think about now is that after I’m officially over-aged for the CCA this April (I’m graduating this year), I can be relieved that I need not bear the torment of listening to some inaudible screeching and shouting by the leaders anymore.

As for what the Choir will become in the future, I’ll leave it to nature, for I believe that the script has already been written.